At a loss.

Right now I am having a really hard time figuring out who is pissing me off more. The Loser or you for thinking the shit storm going on in your life right now is somehow your fault. When the fuck did you become this freakin codependent enabler? You are not at all the person I have known for the past 8 years.
I realize you are struggling right now, but you have to make a good, healthy choice here. Accommodating your baby daddy is really not getting you anywhere. He is a Straight. Up. Loser. and his presence in your life is not at all positive. Check the facts: He is 37 years old, has no car, lives on his mothers couch and has no traceable income to help get you guys a place to live except for the bar.
The bar... where he works 3 night a week so he can justify his speed use and I'm betting that's where he met one, if not all, of the three girls he was cheating on you with while you were pregnant.
And I'm sure it was just those pesky drugs that caused him to throw you down on you bed by the neck and hold a knife to your throat. Remember that? I know you try very hard not to. That morning I went with you to the courthouse and help you fill out the paperwork to get the restraining order and full custody order for your daughter? Yeah, that day, when you had those horrible bruises all over your neck and chest. The man you are trying SO hard to accommodate GAVE YOU THOSE when you caught HIM CHEATING. Again, NONE of that was your fault and you did NOTHING to deserve that.
I know you don't want to do it alone right now, I understand. but he is not worth being essentially homeless and sleeping on the floor with your 6 month old. Please! GO HOME! Get back on your feet with your family for 6 months or a year. I know you don't think the schools there are adequate but you have 5+ years to worry about that.
I am at a complete loss as to what to say to you right now. I can't make you help yourself. I wish I could. I feel helpless and I know you are feeling that too.
All I ask is that you open your eyes to the WHOLE situation and for fucks sake, make a good choice.